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I will start off with relationship=D I shall continue from the start of the month, last year 2013. I bet I was shot by the cupid arrow right after we enter 2013. PLUS! It is not a random arrow. It is an arrow that I almost gave up on. Towards him, at the point of time, was rather complicated. I wasn't sure if he is the right one but yet, everything just pointed towards him and yes! we, at the right time and right moment, it may sounded really dramatic, but it is really true. Many people asked. "So, can you tell me how you two got together?" I really don't know how to answer but, just. It's really just. Everything just falls into place nicely and tadah! We are in a relationship and the whole world knows, mostly were shocked. But still, we withstand all doubts and stay strong till now. Probably should thank my little niece and her mother for wanting the father/husband to be in the house that I wasn't really given a choice but to head back school on a Sunday and yes I don't know how that we started a little messaging with each other and then, moments later, we are watching horror movie (chosen by him) together. Thinking back, I really find it hilarious. There is so much that we can talk about that we almost skipped most of our meals just to continue the very long conversation that we had. OF Course! honeymoon don't last that long. He was involved with so many activities that he don't really have the time for me. I wasn't really used to it at first. He is a guy that doesn't love texting or telling me his whereabouts that often and I'm someone who really love to know his everything so that I can plan my timing and meet him more often. We couldn't get this solved at first. I really did a lot and really a lot of thinking on this. I always wonder, why can't he just tell me.To the extent that I even did some research on the various relationship characteristics and all. Of course, I got enlightened. It boils down to trust and understanding. I not really sure how, but I know that I took a step back and thought about it, not more thinking but lesser. There is actually nothing much to think about. The only thing that is playing tricks on me is over-thinking. My imaginative skills tire both of us out. I'm really glad that I walked the unhappiness out myself. As he won't get to understand my situation and I won't understand his as well. That's when give and take comes in. Not trying to act saintly or what but still I'm glad we both have our own personal space. It's something that I forget to earn for myself in the past. A friend came to talk to me about his relationship and told me about his situation. I think its something that every single couple has to overcome. Everyone face the same thing and it depends on how both of them are able to solve it that builds the relationship. Good luck to you though. Just don't give up that easily. Thanks for being spontaneous to my suggestions mostly and really hope you can try to accommodate to my another request more often! I think you will get it if you read it =D I understand your concerns but really, I trust my choice and don't worry so much about what others think okay? What matters is what I think!=DDD Family Sis finally gave birth to the cute little girl, an addition to our family tree! The eldest grandchild as of now. All of us were really tired out, helping her, spending more time to accompany her. She really does have lots of energy! Don't baby sleep close to 20 hours a day or so??? she is always awake and in just a day, the 6 or 7 of us became clowns to her, trying all means to make her happy and laugh. Glad that she isn't a baby that cries that much and she is always talking to us, entertaining us through her ways. She mostly AHHHHHHH non stop. Right after her birth(the next day), my dearest and oldest pet rabbit passed away. I think it will really take me awhile to forget the last moment, when he had his last breath. I am so glad that my brother was with me throughout as I wasn't really sure on what to do. To be honest, I'm really scared to touch him. I imagined too many times to how a dead body feels like. It's nothing of what I thought. Apart from the stopped heart beat, everything else is the same. The warmth starts to deteriorate slowly and to my amazement, his eyes was closed after we covered the cloth and pull it open to see again. Thanks ah boy, for being there all the time. I am really thankful to have you with me throughout my darkest moment. You are the only one that loves me unconditionally and doesn't judge me for anything I do. You kept my secrets well, endured my roughness on you while i groomed you. You endured so much of pain that I didn't know till the very last moment. Thanks for the wonderful memories you gave me for the past 11 years. I never regret bringing you back. Really hope for a better life for you in your next life. Life and Death in 2 days is something that I doubt I will experience it again. Despite having death, I see both as a happy event. I'm thankful ah boy is out of pain and thankful for having my beautiful niece in our arms. Studies I learn a lot in my major, experience more on the non digital stuffs which i'm quite interested in yet tired as it is not as easy as it seems. The multiple steps that we have to go through just to develop a negative film and the additional steps to print out an image. It really test our patience and endurance level. Nevertheless, I somehow love working in the dark and probably alone. The process is kind of repetitive that I'm given some time for myself to think about some positive stuffs and sort things out. I am not staying in hall anymore but I gained a car to drive since my sis is on maternity leave. I used to hate driving a lot but somehow the trip to and fro from school allows me to build up my driving skill and now I am less afraid to drive. It's a challenge that I finally managed to overcome. First semester of second year was kind of hectic as I overload the modules I ought to take. I ended up giving up on work to get more time for school as well as my sis and niece. It is really a tough choice. It is really so hard to know that you don't have any source of income except the monthly allowance from your family. Good thing is, I dined at home for most of my meals, but still the amount I got to spend to get the necessary items for school is insane. I glad I pulled it through. I got a new job and I love working with them. This marks a good year for 2014=) Last but not least, I always thought that my english wasn't that bad, mostly in self denial mode. Attended a module on Ethics, that almost everyone wanted to faint on that mod. The english level is way higher that I am able to handle but the lecturer kept assured us that it's not as difficult as it seems. It is that difficult. BUT, I managed to ace it! It's something that I least least least least expected. Got a shock in life. It really makes me wonder if my english improved or that lecturer is really too lenient. I doubt he is that lenient after all since we are forced to follow the bell curve for this semester. I shall still stay in delusion that my english isn't that bad afterall. Money/work Since I wasn't able to work. I learn to really scrimp and save on every bit. It did occur to me that I wasn't that mindful on the amount I spend. For example, pad. I don't really care if the pad cost 4 bucks or 2 bucks, as long as it's convenient, I don't care if it's expensive or cheap. That's in the past. Now, I kept looking out for cheap and yet quality stuffs. That's a good sign! People might say I became auntish or so but whatever! We have to start saving from a small amount=D 2014 seems to be a good money year for me. For a start, I won TOTO! That's the first time in my life. Then after, I found a dollar in a washing machine? That's random but still a happy thing to mention about. Lastly, I get a waiver for my overused data charges. Small yet good for me=D Friends Had quite a number of talks on this issue and read some articles on having no friends at all etc. People are afraid of losing friends etc especially when they know they will be in the same environment for a period of time. The thought of missing out stuffs makes them feel outcast. I agree that I felt that way before as well. Then after, moving out of the environment, we get to choose if want to participate on the various activity or is it worth going? If I don't go, people won't think much about me and What if I missed out, we are not on the same page anymore. Gradually, people careless about holding back to their once good friends. My thoughts at first was to let go. I'm so tired of it. Why must I put in so much effort to please everyone or so? Then, I thought again. It's not about pleasing. I am glad that I sorted things out and yes I am thankful to have the people around me. People I can talk to, joke with, share our hearts out and build memories together. Thanks for asking me out. I really love to meet people that I haven't meet them for a long time or you know it's really a random chance that we will meet certain people. Nice having a random meetup with you all and catching up about life. The excitement is you never know how much a person changed and what you all will talk about=) I think communications impacts me more than photos as not all images bears a symbolic meaning. Though I am in photography, I don't really fancy photographing moments that are untrue to what it may appear to be. To end off this really long post. If people were to ask me for my future, I might not be able to answer. At the moment. It's just blank and what i'm doing now is filling in the blanks. Thank you so much everyone! I hope to stay positive all the time! |