but yea...its not an old blog..its a space that allows me to say anything when i wanted to.

2012 finally ended on a good note yesterday with a bunch of crazy hall peeps.

fireworks kind of disappointing... was hoping that it would be right above me..letting all the unhappy stuffs burst up in the sky and just..move on with a good start with 2013...

but looks like it isn't a good start =.=

didn't wake up to a very good day...

but just hope everything would be sorted out 

sometimes..certain things are beyond my means..i can't control..but i certainly don't want anyone to get hurt because of me or anything..guess it's a snow-balled issue..just hope that after saying and clearing the air...it would be better..

overview of 2012

apparently to me 2012 is not as good. i thought (but still! there are many unforgettable things that makes up to it!)

but I would say I met lots of good friends and I'm so glad that I have all of you.. supporting me..

started the year with a trip to hong kong with poly peeps (january)

mixed feelings for that..

but still i think i did enjoy myself after thinking back..

LAST YEAR AT THIS TIMING..I AM WALKING DOWN THE STREETS IN HONG KONG! why am i stuck here now!!!!=(

anyway just recalled the little incidents which makes me feel 2012 gonna be tough..

i hurt my lower spine plus i threw away $100SGD without realizing till the next day...

so memorable that i remembered till now..LOL

and i fell down? seriously what a good way to start a new year right!LOL

ok luh..everything's healed and money earned back so yea forget it..

that aside...i travelled and get to eat all the nice food in hong kong..yea..i wanna go again!!

February

Went to Super Junior concert..LOL

not really a mega fan but Just wanna get the feel of going to an IDOL concert..

ok I NEVER regret spending that amount to experience it..if possible i might still go for the next one..LOLL the sound system plus get to see them close up is OMG...

but the Q for the merchandise is definitely insane..All the XMMs are really crazy over them.. 

March

Australia (perth trip)

Darlin pei pei is in australia for close to 8 years and finally! we get to visit her!!! sadly yu hui can't go..i hope we can still go again anytime soon!!

Just love all the food there as well..especially the egg benedicT!!! i'm missing it alot!!!

don't really like it when the sun sets at 5pm though..i might like night but its just so not right when you are overseas and its night time(it feels like i need to sleep soon) and then the sun rise at 5am -.- when all shops are still closed...faint

ok another major blunder i made..i almost got into a car accident...which scare the hell outta the girls..me too..but driving in a foreign land...definitely a good experience

get to see wild dolphins too! omg!

feed kangeroos and touch a kola bear=DDD

we have a drive down to the magaret river for some sight seeing and lodge staying. but just love it when we go grocery shopping, and cooked and gobble everything together=D 

k la, i might not be of any help for cooking but at least!...i'm there..=D

we went for 8 days? shiokness only

hong kong like 7-8 days also..cannot rem.LOL

after i'm back from australia, received the letter that i'm accepted to ADM..like finally i'm another step closer to my goal!Please don't ask me what i really wanna do in the future..its related to this, mostly on own business though..so yea!!! still on planning and adapting stage!

At the point when i saw the letter, i'm not quite sure what is the exact feeling i felt..its like..YES! but NO!...after i graduate..my youth and the golden period is like...gone..that's kinda depressing..

Consult my brother on this and he told me to go ahead with my plans..
anyway when i graduated from poly, i thought its fine to study my degree at any age.as long as its something i wanna do and not get affected by anything.

Though work wise ain't something related but still i learn something..

yea so after much considerations...I accepted the offer 

April..

Thanks to my lovely branch peeps for throwing me a party at OCC...
after so many years..this is my so called major birthday surprise that i totally didn't expect.
I knew that they are coming to celebrate..and its gonna just be like yea sit relax, watch movie and play some games.
Guess i'm really too reliant on them that whenever they offer to help me, i will just accept and thus the surprise.

Thanks thanks thanks so much..its way better than my 21st birthday although it should be the best..haha
and the gift..

Sarang hae love all of you max!

May-June

Worst period! trying to get a promotion, not able to get any leave cause i need to save it for july so that i could be dismissed earlier..yea..nothing much to update i guess.can't really remember any major events=S

July

09.07.12, i'm officially not a staff of the bank anymore. I miss the bunch of work colleagues. thanks so much for imparting all the knowledge to me, being so tolerant to my temper and attitude. I really have lots of fun and i definitely miss orchard branch.

Planned a phuket + bkk trip, first time having a transit over in a foreign country..i really love the moments i spent with "my dotter"..the resort stay in phuket and the swimming pool is just so pretty, love the night swim and the sitting by the pool and just relax..

love the boat ride out..and our fight against sleep when we pop the sea sickness pill (i think i will never try eating it again) the food and the walk and the massage..awesomeness

bkk, of cox the food again, the night market...i will never forget it..i still miss the bun, the vintage stuffs..vespa!
and our cool cool cams..=DD

Dear dotter,

2012 might not be the best year for you as well, but nevertheless, i will always be there for you whenever you need me..every time i see your tweets, i really feel like crying for you, hugging you, taking up the role of your lost..

i know that you are always strong, i'm proud of you but you don't need to pull up a strong front in front of us..

love you dotter..do take care of yourself and study hard!

right after bkk trip,

went for the hall camp which lasted 8 days. This camp really prep me well for late nights and don't need to sleep attitude..LOL..it really trains me well for endurance and I really met fun and loving people!

I never expect myself to go for this camp but i never regret it..
I didn't expect myself to be staying in hall as well but yup..one of the best decision i made in 2012

August - November

school starts, stress level goes up, drinking a lot..definitely more than the usual in-take.
cause i'm not at home and stuffs.

its just so difficult when not everyone is giving you the fullest support.
money is also another major probs for me(its kind of tough to start getting money from my mum and no income at all every month, this is one of the cons to work first instead)

anyhow, i still enjoyed the companions, the late night supper, the night study group, the staying up all night, chionging, watching dramas while drawing and stuffs! quizzing each other before exams..

just love it when my school ain't theory basis..i might die..LOL.. yea!

December
went bintan with school hall comm.
I'm quite reluctant to go or should say very. I don't really like to travel in big groups when you can't really have your own time.  or should also say a group that i'm not close to.=S
Sometimes you just wanna be alone, stare into space and think of nothing or anything that I want. yea..paid..so still have to go.

Wasn't that bad after all.
I still have my own time, and when i roam away, they won't ask me why I'm away and stuffs. I still have the fun part with them as well..I'm really thankful and sorry for them that i didn't even put in the effort but yet, yea..I will try my best to help them out nevertheless.

Get to see fireworks and shooting stars! the best best best part...
It's like wow! did i see wrongly or so? but yea i saw SS twice..so i doubt i see it wrongly? i did make a wish..but i doubt it will happen.so yea...just let it be

didn't really do anything there..and it's good.just enjoy the breeze, the annoyingly addictive swing.
break away from the technology which i shouldn't be but heck it anyway... and stare out not thinking about anything..probably i did luh..can't remember what i'm thinking as well..lol

thats the last trip of the year...
i really hope i can at least travel to somewhere far in 2013=(

i'm in school close to 3 weeks despite being the holiday period!!! hall stuffs , sports + the additional source of income are driving me crazy...I really hope i can cope after sch starts..I don't wish to give up any of it that i'm committed to now..

results are out..its above my expectation but somehow..i set my goal too low..!!! shucks what am i doing!!I need to work triple hard next sem to pull back my results..this sucks big time

although gpa sucks
i got into the major..that i wanted to...photog..
to many it might seems useless (at some point i thought its rather useless la..lol..) but i know that i will definitely learn something that i not gonna learn in any other majors=D
still thankful for that...

although i'm studying, its worse than working....i don't really have any free time at all but i love it when i'm busy..i don't really like to just nua there and do nothing. just hope that i didn't have too much stuffs..and hope everything will fall in place properly next sem..

01.01.13

went for  k singing session with hall peeps, i would say..i never been so crazy before..like singing crazily literally..its really like a stress relieving session...half the boulder in my heart is lifted off. I hope it will just disappear, i really hate this feeling...

for now, i have decided. it will stay with 2012.


thanks for those who are there, listening to all my rants and giving me solutions..

especially my yeobo..although i'm not at work anymore. phone call do help and i'm really glad to have you by my side..no one like you, gives me the fullest support and lead me through my darkest moment.
you are the one that gave me the warmest hug and ample support...sarang hae! 

i'm really thankful for whatever I have now..thanks so much people